Loving you is a lot like riding roller-coaster.
Loving you is much like I am riding in a roller coaster.
I was afraid at the first that I might hate the ride, that I might regret if I decided to take the ride. But in the other side, I really want to have fun. I really want to scream things out with you, and you are going to hold my hands telling me everything is going to be alright because you will always be there with me.
Even since I haven’t start the ride yet, I know exactly it’d going to be extremely fun. I know exactly I’m going to hate it so much when the cars running down so fast. And you’d tell me you’re afraid, but I couldn’t even take care of you because I’m afraid too. Because it scares me that I’d lose myself when the ride goes down.
But then, you really take me to the ride. I can remember clearly, how you assure me that we can go through everything. So I walk in to the car, with a bit of hesitation. But seeing you sitting there beside me, I automatically do not have any hesitation at all.
The ride has finally started. I was really excited, and I’m pretty sure no one in this earth be fool enough to not even realize that we really enjoyed the ride.
Months passed, we have faced many downs but we don’t want to stop yet.
But things are getting worse. It becomes more difficult for us to look after each other when ride goes down. We thought of stopping the ride for like so many times.
I start to think that I should have never started this ride. But I truly never regret every moment I’ve experienced with you on this ride.
I apologize for everything I have done to you that make you cry, I really never mean it. I apologize if you did not really enjoy the ride with me. I know I treated you so bad. I apologize I did not hold your hands when I know you only needed it, and not being there when you only needed to be companied.
I wish I could give you the ease, but aren’t I too fool and selfish to even know how?
The ride has now stopped.
And I.. certainly want to go on another ride with you.
I really feel like I’m a kid.
I think I should ask them for some advices. Or just ask them a simple question like, how did they enjoy riding roller-coaster that much even when they know it flungs you away until you feel like you almost lost your life.
If you happen to read this, I just want you to know that I love you. I don’t know how long will I keep this feeling for you but you can just not mind me.
You know I’m good at handle feelings right. I will continue to be like that.
So please, be happy for the sake of us.
Us, will always be missed.
